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Saturday, April 9, 2011

Sunday Talk

Trails are a daily and constant thing in our lives. They are meant to test our faith and at the same time strengthen our faith. Joseph Smith told the twelve on one occasion: You will have all kinds of trials to pass through. And it is quite as necessary for you to be tried as it was for Abraham and other men of God, and (said he) God will feel after you, and He will take hold of you and wrench your very heart strings, and if you cannot stand it you will not be fit for an inheritance in the Celestial Kingdom of God.” Even though we understand the purpose of trails and tests and hardships and with the pure knowledge may say to the Lord test me I want to pass. It’s still hard to go through. One of my trials has been weighing on me lately. I’ve been asking “why?” a lot. Why me? Why this? Why?

As I’ve been searching the scriptures, both modern and ancient, I came across a parable that I haven’t really thought of since my primary days. It’s found in Matthew 7:24-25, which reads: “Whosoever heareth these sayings of mine, and doeth them, I will liken him unto a wise man, which built his house upon a rock: And the rain descended, and the floods came, and the winds blew, and beat upon that house; and it fell not: for it was founded upon a rock.”  We need to have a rock to stand on when our rains and floods and winds come. So we need to have a strong testimony of the Lord to withstand our trails to make it through them, to earn that inheritance in the Celestial Kingdom of God! When I read that I think, “I want a bedrock testimony! I want to be immovable when my rains and floods and winds come.” So how can I develop a bedrock testimony? What is necessary for a bedrock testimony?
Joseph Smith answered those questions in the Lectures of Faith. He said that there are 3 requirements for us to have true faith:
1- The idea that he (Heavenly Father) actually exists.
2- A correct idea of his character, perfections and attributes.
3- An actual knowledge that the course of life which we are pursuing is according to the Lord’s will.
The first one, “the idea that Heavenly Father actually exists” is something I’ve always been blessed to know. I had great parents and family and primary teachers to testify and teach me of this truth. So it’s the next two I’ve choosen to focus on.

The second one is having a correct idea of his character, perfections and attributes.  I want to focus on a certain part of our Heavenly Fathers character because it’s something that has stood out to me and helped strengthen me in these last few months. That is His infinite love for us and He knows us personally. I think it’s safe to say that all of us at some point in time have asked him “Are you really there?” We know he has the power to give you a baby, why doesn’t he? We know he can heal this sickness, why doesn’t he? We know he can seal us to a husband or wife as an eternal family, but why can’t we find that someone? We know he’s given certain talents or commandments, but why doesn’t he let us fulfill them? That word why keeps popping up. I know I can’t answer these questions for you, but I know the Lord has answered some of mine and I want to share that knowledge with you that you may see what I see, that maybe just maybe it’ll help you bear your burdens a little longer with more faith and hope. I want to talk to you about tender mercies. Could it be that the Lord is saying “No, not now” to us so He can bless us with the opportunity to help someone else come to the knowledge that there is a God and he does love and know them? The Lord has nicely pointed this out in my life quite a few times… I wonder when I’m going to get it? A few weeks ago, when I was asking why, was one of those experiences for me. I was having a hard time understanding why, why me, why this trail, when the Lord brought two people into my life with two different trails that I was able to help them because of what I knew. I was able to testify that the Lord knew who they were and he cared very, very deeply for them. He wanted them to know this and take comfort in it and to come unto him. If my trail had not been there I know that I never would have been there to testify of this. I would have missed that opportunity to bear my testimony. For one of the first times in my life I thanked the Lord for a trail in my life.
Another tender mercy happened last week in this ward. I’m not even sure the two people involved even realized it, but a sister came to church for the first time in months because she was wondering if Heavenly Father really cared. She knows he has the power to soften the heart of her husband but she was wondering why he hadn’t. She had need the lesson Sister Lawrence gave last week in Relief Society on finding joy in your life. The Lord was showing that sister that he was mindful of her and he loved her enough to have a lesson just for her. Another tender mercy that came out of a trail I’m sure he didn’t think anyone would gain from, happened a few weeks ago when I called my brother in law, who has gone through divorce, and I asked him how I could help a friend through a divorce. He was able to tell me some amazing ideas that I never would have thought of to help this friend of mine. I hope he knows that in many ways I’m thankful for that trail of his. It not only was he able to give me advice but because of that trail he met and married my best friend and introduced me to my husband.

 Are you seeing how the Lord can change our trails into blessings? In Matthew 11:28-30 it reads: Come unto me, all ya that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.

It’s through moving our eyes from the thorns to the rose that we realize the tender mercies and the blessings. As you can see that through looking at trails a different way and noticing those tender mercies  the Lord makes your burdens lighter. My trails are still hard. I still ask why. BUT I know there’s a reason. Once again a few weeks ago as I was asking why and struggling with my relationship with the Lord, he strengthened me. I woke up from a restless night with the words “good will come of this” echoing in my head. I remember in my weakness saying whatever. I can’t see any good coming of this. I’ve done everything that I can. It’s a righteous desire, why can’t you bless me with it!!! And all that came to mind was good will come of this. I don’t know if the Lord is done showing me the good yet, but I know I see the good already, in fact I might even say bring it on, show me some more good.

I’ve been reading Divine Signatures by Gerald N Lund, which by the way was an inspired birthday gift from my mom. In it Brother Lund quotes Elder Richard G. Scott saying, “Write down in a secure place the important things you learn from the spirit. You will find that as you write down precious impressions, often more will come. Also the knowledge you gain will be available throughout your life. Always, day or night, wherever you are, whatever you are doing, seek to recognize and respond to the direction of the Spirit.” I want to testify of the truth of this statement, as I was writing this talk I was flooded with experiences where the Holy Ghost testified to me that the Lord loves me and knows who I am. President Henry B Eyring once taught that when he had followed this council and asked himself “Have I seen the hand of God reaching out to touch us or our children or our family today? He noticed that I quote, “I would see evidence of what God had done for one of us that I had not recognized in the busy moments of the day. I know the Lord is mindful of each of us.

Brother Lund shares a story I wish to share with you to demonstrate that knowledge. He was presiding at a stake conference in California and he noticed a Hispanic family in the congregation. It was a Grandma, a Grandpa, a mother, a father and a young boy. The love the Grandma and young boy had for each other was what caught his eye. As usual he had asked the stake presidency to speak followed by some testimonies from a couple of sisters in the stake. That morning the meeting hadn’t gone as long as it usually had and they were running 5 minutes ahead. So just before the stake president stood to close the meeting Elder Lund asked him to have another testimony and pointed out the grandmother from the congregation.  As she was called, I quote Elder Lund now, “There was a moment of shock, followed by momentary confusion, but she stood and came to the stand. When she came to the pulpit, her first words were: ‘Well, I suppose it is my fault that I am up here.” That startled all of us a little. She then explained, ‘As my family and I came into the chapel this morning, I said to my husband, ‘I wonder if they will call people out of the audience to bear their testimony this morning.’ Then with irritation I added, ‘Have you noticed that when they do that, they never call on Hispanics? Why is that, do you suppose? Do they think we can’t speak English, or that we don’t have strong enough testimonies? Or maybe they just don’t think about us in that way.’ Then, very sheepishly, she added, ‘I guess it serves me right, because here I am.’” Elder Lund goes on to say, “The Lord knew the heart of this good woman; He knew how she felt. Even the fact that we had extra time was a bit unusual…. I felt a sudden rush of gladness that Heavenly Father had called my attention to this woman and put the thought into my mind to call her up.” We never know. We just never know what’s going on. A few weeks ago when Sister Julie Beck came to BYU-I, I learned something invaluable she said to us basically how dare we assume that the person we are talking to doesn’t have a need. I’ve started to realize that yes every one of us has trails but why can’t we help each other through those trails? We can help recognize a tender mercy, we can be that tender mercy, and we can testify of our tender mercies.

I would like to talk about that third requirement to have true faith it’s having an actual knowledge that the course of life which we are pursuing is according to the Lord’s will. If we want to see the tender mercies of the Lord we need to make sure we are living our lives according to his will!

Saturday, February 26, 2011

Sister Beck

This morning I had the opportunity to go to a training meeting with Sister Julie B Beck, our General Relief Society President. It was amazing. She opened it up for questions, anyone who had them. I wanted to get up and ask why infertility, and how can I still feel like I"m apart of Heavenly Father's plan, but I'm to big of a chicken to stand up and I waited far too long. :) The amazing things was that as the other questions were being answered mine was also answered. One thing I wanted to mention right now was the three purposes of RS:
1- Increase Faith in Jesus Christ
2- Strengthen home and families
3- Find and help those with needs

Number three really stuck out at me as the meeting went on. Sister Beck told of a lady whose husband had left her. She moved and in the ward she was in the attitude was that of "we have too many single mothers" As she was in her sad/dark moment one day in church they announced that sister so and so had had a baby. This sister thought "I'm going to take her a meal." She wasn't assigned, she wasn't her visiting teacher; but she did anyway. Things continued this way for awhile and soon the ward wasn't thinking of her as a single mother but as a sister.

Sister Beck said, "you can't assume that the person you are talking to doesn't have a need, everyone has a need." Always.

I need to continue to work on this value. I need to forget myself and my needs and go to work, the rest will follow.

Sunday, January 30, 2011

Hope

I decided that I wanted to study hope next because that's one of the first line of the bible dictionary for faith says: "Faith is to hope for things which are not seen, but which are true and must be centered in Jesus Christ...." Hope is another important word to understand so I can understand faith. Hope is not in the bible dictionary so I looked hope up on the Latter-day Saints website. In the True to the Faith booklet it stated that: "Hope is the confident expectation of and longing for the promised blessings of righteousness. The scriptures often speak of hope as anticipation of eternal life through faith in Jesus Christ." This caught me off guard. Hope in the "world" sense that I think of is (thanks, dictionary.com): to feel that something desired may happen. It's the word may that would throw me. May is something that throws a maybe into a situation. I'm glad that I found this new way of looking at hope.

Ok so I'm really struggling with this. With how to put words to my thoughts and how to fully understand hope. I know this will be a work in progress and I'll get it step by step.

One other statement on hope that I liked was "hope is sure, unwavering, and active." (True to the Faith) Hope isn't something that you just say and that's it. Hope is something that is solid, there, and moving! It's something to rely on! Back to the first statement added to this statement, listen to these strong words used to describe/define hope: confident, longing, promised, blessings, righteousness, eternal life (oh I need to have a post on this!), sure, unwavering and active! I'd take any of those words over maybe.

Hope has taken a whole new definition for me. It's not something that MIGHT happen, it's something to look forward to. I can't wait to learn more about hope and share it with you.



Sunday, January 16, 2011

Faith in Christ

Today I wanted to focus on Faith. I was thinking about all the things I knew about faith and I realized that I I wasn't sure I really knew much. So I was really excited to learn more and gain that testimony of faith.

I started in the Bible Dictionary: Faith. The one part that stuck out to me was the part that read: "To have faith is to have confidence in something or someone." I finally made the connection that faith is confidence. Confidence is to me trust.

Then I started thinking, who and what can I have faith in? The next part in the Bible Dictionary pointed me in a great direction: "The Lord has revealed himself and his perfect character..." What a great person to have faith (or confidence) in but a perfect Lord? :-)

I know I have faith in the Lord Jesus Christ. That means I have confidence in the Lord Jesus Christ and in what He teaches. One thing the Lord teaches is to have faith in His time line. I was reminded of that today when I received a new calling and was set apart.  In the blessing Bro. J said that I would be blessed as I prepared my life and home for my future family. And that it would happen in the Lord's time. (paraphrased from memory)  I've been reminded of this so many times in the last little while.

Earlier in the day in Sunday School we were talking about Christ's early life and how we don't know much about it. Our teacher Sister W. lead us to D&C 93, where John the Baptist testifies of Christ (modern revelation from Joseph Smith). We were discussing verse 12 when it says "received grace for grace" Sister W. brought up the saying "Tit for Tat" She looked it up and found out it's a gaming strategy. Basically, Player 1 makes a good, cooperating move; Player 2 can do one of two things: fight by not cooperating and Player 1 will also be done cooperating in the game; or Player 2 can cooperate with Player 1 and together they will cooperate until the end of the game. In class we continued to discuss how this is like our relationship with Christ. He will make the first move then wait to see what we will do next. If we follow the commandments he continues to bless us. Sometimes Christ will let us make the first move... our move therefore is into the dark.

While this was being discussed I thought of how I could apply this to me. The Holy Ghost pointed me to the right direction, I thought of a conversation I had with Bro J. when he asked me to take on my new calling that morning. He asked me what our plans were if we had a baby (with work), and he explained that there would probably be a release if I continued to work. I know the Lord called me for a reason to this position. How could I disappoint him and skip out of those blessings? Also why would the Lord give me this calling if He didn't have faith in me? So I started thinking what would my first move be if the Lord is waiting for me?

We know we should have a baby and we've been counseled not to put it off and that as a mother I should be at home. So our first step should be preparing ourselves for this to happen:

  • Savings (Save more so that we can live off of the savings if Luke can't find a job. Plus there maybe some rainy days because he'd only be able to work part time)
  • Molding my job for the future (I have an opportunity right now to mold my job so that if and when I get pregnant I may be able to work from home.)
  • Luke finding a job now (we live in a college town it's hard to find jobs at times. If he can find a job now we can put all that money into savings and already be prepared with a job.)
I learned so much about faith this week and it was so cool how it related to my church lessons on Sunday. I know the Lord loves us and wants the best for us. I have faith in the Lord and in His time line. I know He's the perfect person to have faith in. 

Saturday, January 15, 2011

It came in a dream.

I've been thinking about starting this blog for awhile now. My husband and I have been trying to have a baby for awhile now and although most people would say it's infertility I say it's an opportunity for our faith to grow. Through this experience I have noticed a lot of the whys. And I've learned that I need to trust in the Lord and his timeline. There's a reason for everything. And this blog is one reason, I need to build my faith. I was reading in 2 Peter when I came across a scripture that made me stop and ponder. My mind was drawn to it multiple times in the last couple of weeks.
2 Peter 1:5-8:
  "5 And beside this, giving all diligence, add to your faith virtue; and to virtue knowledge;
  6 And to knowledge temperance; and to temperance patience; and to patience godliness;
  7 And to godliness brotherly kindness; and to brotherly kindness charity.
  8 For if these things be in you, and abound, they make you that ye shall neither be barren nor unfruitful in the knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ."

Verse 8 is what caught my eye, "For if these things be in you, and abound, they make you that ye shall neither be barren nor unfruitful" (no I didn't read any further haha). That started me thinking, are these things in me? Do they abound? 

I want to make sure these things: faith, virtue, knowledge, temperance, patience, godliness, brotherly kindness and charity, abound in me so I will "neither be barren nor unfruitful."

So I decided to start this blog to record my progress. I've been having a hard time coming up with a title for this blog. Well last night I was sleeping and it came to me, "good will come from this." It was perfect, everything that will come out of this will be good! 

So here it is. Enjoy and grow with me. 

Camille